dancing_in_wonderland

jaclcfrost:

it probably seems like i cry over stupid shit but tbh i usually end up crying because i’ve stored up all of my upset feelings from multiple things rather than express them and then the littlest thing sets me off like spilling my drink may not be that big of a deal but when i’ve stored up that many negative emotions it feels like i busted a hole in the hoover dam

wordsto-remember:

Jersey Green - I’m Alright

wordsto-remember:

Jersey Green - I’m Alright

I’m sorry that after 6 years of friendship you would rather be with another girl who you’ve only known for a year. I’m sorry that she’s prettier than me I’m sorry that she’s better than me I’m sorry that she’s not as screwed up as me and I’m sorry I can’t change myself into something you see suitable. I’m sorry that all of my other friends have left me because they don’t want to deal with me and I’m sorry that you feel lonely when I’ve been here the whole time. I’m sorry that I’m not enough but most of all I’m sorry that you gave up on me.

I’m depressed,
But darling,
I love wearing bright colors,
and I love things that sparkle,
I laugh at everything,
and I smile more than most,
but darling believe me,
my mind is killing me.
(via kissedby-suicide)

“Home is where the heart is,” they say, but
I can’t find my heart. No wonder I never feel
at home. I get caught in bed sheets and bad
dreams about the past, pictures and memories
slap me in the face even when I’m asleep.

There’s no escape really, I use to drown in
my tears at midnight and wake up alive. Now
I realize I’m in over my head, slowly suffocating
myself with unsaid words and crowded thoughts.
Things I cannot, will not, don’t even know how to
actually say, are what bug me every single day of
every week. Leaving the house doesn’t even help
anymore, because I just want to fall back into the
waves I call covers and sleep just to forget, but
really to remember, what I’m running from.

You know, you live in a house with family, but really
what is family? I don’t remember anymore, because
it’s more like strangers you know really well, just
not enough to tell them you’re slowly dying inside
your mind. I’ve had longer conversations with
sleeping pills and the walls of my bedroom. At
least their silence doesn’t make you feel like
you’re fucking insane.

“I’m fine,” has just become the default of, “I wish
you’d stop asking, you don’t really care.”
Or maybe it’s because I’m too tired to explain what’s
wrong, or how I feel, because I live it every waking
moment. Maybe it’s the thought they would know by
looking into my lifeless eyes, there’s nothing there.
Maybe it’s the urge to tell my mother the
first time my skin was kissed, it was by the razor,
then realizing how pathetic I really am. Or maybe it’s
just the sadness talking, I don’t really know anymore.

i.c. // "What’re you running from?" (via delicatepoetry)
sicklysatisfied:

∞ Are You Satisfied? ∞

sicklysatisfied:

∞ Are You Satisfied? ∞